in the meanwhile

I haven't written for a while. So, like, sorry.

I'm okay. Not peachy, but okay. I feel like I'm treading water more than making any real headway lately, but at least I'm not (for lack of a good water metaphor) sliding back.

Went to a work party tonight and everyone was drinking and having a great time. I really wanted to drink tonight, more than I have in a while. Tonight this AA thing seemed so stupid, like I really overreacted about the whole thing. I guess that I was so desperate is an indication that I am, in fact, an alcoholic. Dude. I dunno. It was hard.

I wanted to leave but didn't want to make a big deal about it so I literally snuck out. Felt like an ass, but the party was in full swing and I just needed to leave.

Anyway.