Now I've done it

Just got back from the dentist. I've had puffy gums for a while, and now I've… suddenly moved into gum disease. Um, yay.

I have to go back to get my teeth cleaned and scraped under the gumline, which requires numbing. It'll be two visits, half a mouth a visit, and a couple hundred bucks even with insurance. This is to hopefully hold off the periodontist.

While it's been caught pretty early, there's already damage and a line I've crossed, as in the gums aren't coming back, and I'm heading in a direction that ends up in losing teeth.

The cause? Genetics… and smoking. And not flossing enough. So, two out of three? MY FAULT. It's a sign that the smoking has to go. I have to stop it. Not in the distant future... SOON.

My parents have had teeth pulled from shit like this, and I do NOT want to go there. This really upsets me.

I've been annoyed with myself for my diet lately. And now I think this is a sign that a lot of things have to change about the way I take care of myself.

Sigh. I'm so bummed. This was avoidable.

Let this be a lesson learned, kiddies. Floss every day (which I now have to do, seriously).